Hoe hoe hoe. Have a feel in my tiny boys sack for your present which will be f-all! I have to ,happy birtday Jesus ......not here ,no students though so being on probation [at school ,not from the ole bill] I had to work some holiday to get my holiday pay. Lifes not great but its not shit or it is shit and i just don't care. Had a few offer from mates offering to pay after my split with X and go hit the sauce and minge or hit up some dates but I don't have money or desire so at last after a crazy last 2 week of christmas school for lil ones I can finally get back in the gym and eat right, it's been 3 yrs since I've stopped/started etc ,never a prob before but on we go. Schools happy ,parents ,kiddies and my class pretty much excelled in there little christmas show that I wrote. No booze of BIG drug slip up but still daily tolerant use but no way I can even think to clean up now until job it secure. It's alot 'cooler' outside Bangkok with school/rooms surrounds by fields. I know where to shop market and supermarket and pharmacies and hospital so I guess that's my life covered for now. Mates are txting drunk with nuf bird but it don't really phase me ,probably no test/libido helps. New gym atmosphere is shit but I finally afforded some headfones and Thank God I still have the baby Honda 150cc to get around. Jobs hammers you mentally though big time.......still I'm mentally hammered. Have a good new yr and enjoy your christmas dinners with family ,GF or mates. I fukin miss that.